Friday, May 25, 2012

Roses and Thorns

Whew.  Let me tell you, I have had a tough month.  It has been stressful.  Anyway, I was thinking about everything that has me worried and it all became overwhelming.  THEN I had a bad day.  At that point, I decided to look for the blessings.  Thanks, Mom!  I am definitely trying harder to be grateful for the roses instead of dwelling on the thorns.

Thorn: My computer broke as I was charting for work.
Rose:  I was charting because I'm blessed enough to have a paying job.

Thorn: The computer botch caused me to be running late for my staff meeting.
Rose:  I had to be there.  Because I'm part of the staff.  Because I have a job.

Thorn:  Couldn't find my keys.
Rose:  I have a husband nice enough to give me his keys to the car.

Thorn: While I was at the bank, I locked my keys (and my husband's keys) in my car...while it was running (This is what happens when you are too busy fretting about things out of your control.  You forget to prevent problems that you can control).
Rose:  I have a car that runs.

Thorn:  I had to pay somebody to unlock my car for me.
Rose: The guy I paid was located 2 doors down from the bank so he was able to do it in a jiffy.

Thorn:  My client was having a bad day (which made my job difficult).
Rose:  I went to a great university that taught me how to handle this difficult situation.

After my meltdown earlier this week I've been trying really hard to do this.  It has been helpful.  Am I still a little worried and stressed about other things? Pfft, yes!  But it isn't the consuming kind of stress.  It is the "Since-the-Lord-was-merciful-enough-to-help-with-the-little-things-I-know-He's-going-to-take-care-of-the-big-things-too-but-I-wish-I-knew-how" kind of stress.  Know what I mean?

Anyway, for those of you who were here hoping for a funny Peyton story, I'm sorry to disappoint.  We will return to posts about her shinanigans soon.  Man, oh man.  I can't wait to tell you about the latest doozy...

Monday, May 21, 2012

Peyton wanted to wear a dress this morning...

...and I let her.  No big deal, right?

Well, tonight she wanted to watch a movie and I didn't even need to scan the living room before I told her that she needed to pick up her toys first.  Earlier this morning Juju was driving her nuts so Peyton dragged the entire toy box to the front room so that Juju would busy herself with that instead of crawling on top of Peyton.  By 7 p.m. every toy had made its way out of the box.

Fast forward to 7:30 and Peyton is in a state of absolute hysteria.  Through loud sobs, Peyton has this conversation with me:

Me:  Peyton, I know you want to watch a movie but I can't let you do that until you pick up your toys.

Peyton:  But I not WANT to (insert snot sound) pick up my toys!

Me: Then no movie.

Peyton: (Rocking herself in a small Rubbermaid tub that she barely fits into) I not want to pick up toys!  I a princess!  I wear a dress! I want a movie!

Me:  But Peyton, didn't you know?  Princesses always pick up their toys!  I can help you!  Once they are picked up, you may watch a movie!

Peyton: NO!  I wear a dress!  Princesses NOT pick up toys!  Mommy picks up toys! 

She then kicked over the box of toys that I had started to help clean up and screamed "I NOT watch movie ever AGAIN!" and ran away and locked herself in her room. this adolescence (har har har)?  I don't know where it came from!  She is usually really good about cleaning up. It's a good thing she sprinted down the hallway and sent herself to a room.  Saved me the trouble of doing it.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

To My Mom

I'm glad that we get to celebrate mothers tomorrow.  While I'm trilled and flattered that my husband and girls are going to celebrate me (YAY!) I can't help but wish that I could celebrate with my mother.  Seriously.  She is awesome.  She deserves ``a lot of recognition.  She deserves breakfast in bed and a delicious dinner.  She deserves to be pampered.  She deserves to be showered with gifts.  Due to the fact that we're still poor college kids and we live far away, she isn't going to get any gifts or pampering from me.  She will get a card.  Due to my scatter-brained nature, she will get her card late.  Sigh.  So much less than what she deserves, BUT I want her, and all of you guys, to know exactly why she deserves so much.  Here is a list of a few things my mother taught me.

1) You can do anything as long as you know there's an end. Always good to hear in the middle of a trial.  Or a semester.  Or a pregnancy.  Or potty training.

2) My Savior loves me. Before I was able to develop my own testimony, I knew that Christ loved me.  I knew because my Mom told me.  I knew she was right because she was smart.  I also knew she'd never lie to me.

3) Use your right foot to accelerate AND to brake.

4) You can always find something to be grateful for.   My junior year, after my sister died, we moved into this tiny shack.  My mom became a single mother who still had 7 children to care for. As you can imagine, we had very little money. We had a van and it seemed like something was always going wrong with it.  We were on our way back from Bryan, where she spent the last little bit of money we had getting the brakes fixed.  We were tired.  Tired of being sad that my sister was gone.  Tired of the dumpy shack with the awful bathroom.  Tired of being broke. Tired of everything being a struggle.  As we neared home, a tire blew out.  The van swerved a little and Mom was able to pull it over.  She started to cry and put her head on the steering wheel.  I knew that this had just broken her.  She lifted up her head and suggested that we should pray.  I folded my arms and waited for her to pray for the Lord to give us a break or to show us some way out of our predicament.  She didn't pray for those things.  She bowed her head and thanked the Lord for keeping us safe and for His constant care.  As she said her tearful prayer, I realized that her tears were from being overwhelmed with gratitude, not from sadness.  I was surprised and humbled.  When she had finished praying I told her how that wasn't the prayer I thought she'd offer.  She looked surprised and said, "Courtney, we could have been in an accident and gotten very hurt.  The Lord blessed us and kept us safe."  I think about that a lot.  I mean A LOT.  When things seem terrible this is usually what pulls me out of the funk (admittedly, I usually struggle and whine before I remember). 

5) You don't walk on a softball field.  You run to your position, you hussle after the ball,  then you run off the field to the dugout.  So, perhaps not the most important lesson she taught me but she was my coach for a lot of years and I'm unable to forget it.  While she meant it literally, I think you can also apply the concept to life.  Don't putt through life; always be anxiously engaged in a good cause.

Mom, you put up wth an awful lot.  I know you don't think so, but you have also taught me a lot about patience (I said you taught me.  I didnt say I learned).  I'm grateful you showed so much patience with us.  I know we were always quick to tell you what you did wrong (and sometimes we still do-sorry), but you did so much right.  I am a much better person than I would have been without your example.  Thanks for all of the sacrifices you made for us.  You stayed up late while I slept so you could type my 5 page paper that I had written by hand and forgot to type.  You hunted in ditches trying to find the shoe that flew off the top of my car on the way to school.  You showed up to my performances, games, banquets, and concerts, often with very little notice.  You picked me up in the middle of the night from sleepovers when I just wanted to come home.  You did my paper routes when I was sick.  You flew out to Idaho because I wanted my mom for  my birthday.  Basically, you are the bomb-diggity.  Thanks for everything.  I love you.